So, tomorrow morning, in right about 12 hours I will be getting the second dose of Cytoxan (Cyclophosphamide) Chemotherapy infused into my veins. I am excited in a nervous sort of way. In a way, I’m SO happy I’m actually getting treatment for a disease that has been ‘silently’ tearing me apart for so many years… but on the other hand, I’m thinking “Holy CRAP I am about to go get MORE chemotherapy! Why the hell would I even consider being happy?!“I’m not totally sure what to expect… I don’t think I really even had any nausea the first dose I received. BUT I was in the hospital, and being given lots of other medications. From what I hear, it gets a little worse each time- as it builds up in your body, and your body fights for whatever it has left. But I hear different things from different people. I don’t even know if I get an outpatient sort of recovery room, or if I sit in a big room full of other people getting treatments…? So many questions, but they will all be answered soon enough. I will definitely give an update tomorrow and let everyone know how things went and all my thoughts.I’m a little disappointed the chemo had to take the place (without rescheduling available) of my physical therapy- but the P.T. said I will need recovey time, and to be PATIENT and just wait till Friday like a good patient. Haha, I love her to death. She is very well educated- and can handle all of my questions/comments/blabber very well! Perhaps I’ll be able to find her some small holiday gift as a thank you for dealing with me 
I truly believe, even with the little bit of P.T. I’ve had so far, it is helping A LOT.
Anyways, I have a few more things I need to do before I get to sleep for my early and BUSY morning tomorrow! So, i hope everyone has a wonderful night- and happy first day of Hanukkah to anyone who feels that may apply to them! Happy Holidays as well, even though they are ridiculously stressful and I refuse to go shopping until sometime in probably March now after going to Target today!
♥ Signed, nervously excited,
Becca ♥
Good luck with your treatment. Just take some deep breaths and take it easy if you have nausea. (I didnt have nausea on my treatments til the 3rd one, but it wasnt SOsoSO bad.)
You will be in my thoughts.
Thanks so much Sheila. It’s so nice to not have to feel alone in all of this. I’m generally a very independent lady, but it feels nice to have the support of everyone behind me who cares, or at least understands what is going on!!!
<3 good luck tomorrow!! <3
Thanks Lovely! I’ll let you know how it’s going! Hopefully nothing too exciting happens!!!
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Susan
Cure for Sweaty Feet
I came across your blog on Facebook and really like following it. I think we are a lot alike. I am 23 and just had my second cytoxan infusion. I didn’t have much trouble with it in the hospital, but the second one sucked. I three up everything I ate the next day. Make sure you have nausea meds on hand because I didn’t know and I called my doctor’s office after throwing up breakfast and they were too “busy” to call the pharmacy until late that day after I’d thrown up all my meds and lunch and even water. I would think if someone calls after chemo and cant hold down any meds, food, or wayer that should be priority. Sorry for the nasty details I just don’t want it to happen to you too.
Hi Natalie, Sorry for the late response to your comment! My 2nd round of chemo actually went ok, but luckily I was already loaded up on chemo anti-nausea medications prior to the treatment- due to nausea problems I have had before. I had both phenergan (promethazine) and zofran on hand prior to, and after the treatments. Plus- your doctor should have at least ordered you some anti-nausea IV meds and fluids before the treatment….?. I find that phenergan works best on me, and it tends to sedate me rather heavily, so I mostly just slept through the next couple of days. I highly recommend it on your next try, if you have the option.
I can’t believe they treated you so poorly at your own doctor’s office! I would certainly call back and make some sort of complaint to someone!!. I mean, chemo is a big deal- cancer or not. I am so sorry your experience ended up so much differently than mine. I am expecting I will not get so lucky on y 3rd one (judging from everyone experiences)- although I don’t know if being hospitalized less than a week after my 2nd treatment is a positive experience either. Oh lupus. You just never know.
Nice to meet you Natalie, keep in touch.
Keep in touch,
XoXo Becca