So, tomorrow morning, in right about 12 hours I will be getting the second dose of Cytoxan
infused into my veins. I am excited in a nervous sort of way. In a way, I’m SO happy I’m actually getting treatment for a disease that has been ‘silently’ tearing me apart for so many years… but on the other hand, I’m thinking “Holy CRAP I am about to go get MORE chemotherapy! Why the hell would I even consider being happy?!
“I’m not totally sure what to expect… I don’t think I really even had any nausea the first dose I received. BUT I was in the hospital, and being given lots of other medications. From what I hear, it gets a little worse each time- as it builds up in your body, and your body fights for whatever it has left. But I hear different things from different people. I don’t even know if I get an outpatient sort of recovery room, or if I sit in a big room full of other people getting treatments…? So many questions, but they will all be answered soon enough. I will definitely give an update tomorrow and let everyone know how things went and all my thoughts.I’m a little disappointed the chemo had to take the place (without rescheduling available) of my physical therapy- but the P.T. said I will need
recovey time, and to be PATIENT and just wait till Friday like a good patient. Haha, I love her to death. She is very well educated- and can handle all of my questions/comments/blabber very well! Perhaps I’ll be able to find her some small holiday gift as a thank you for dealing with me
I truly believe, even with the little bit of P.T. I’ve had so far, it is helping A LOT.
Anyways, I have a few more things I need to do before I get to sleep for my early and BUSY morning tomorrow! So, i hope everyone has a wonderful night- and happy first day of Hanukkah to anyone who feels that may apply to them! Happy Holidays as well, even though they are ridiculously stressful and I refuse to go shopping until sometime in probably March now after going to Target today!
♥ Signed, nervously excited,