This blog is for you my fellow lupies… or generally ill immuned.
Do you ever get mad??? Do you ever get angry??
Of course you do. But I mean at your illness. I find myself getting more and more angry at my lupus. Not only the lupus, but everything that comes along with it. People either judge me incapable, or feel sorry for me…and I don’t want either. I appreciate when people say how far I’ve come, I really do. I have tried very hard and overcome huge obstacles in the past year to get where I am.
But when people pity me– no thank you. I’m still human just like everyone else, I just fight harder.
However, I have to admit… I used to be one of ‘those’ people. When I’d see someone in a wheelchair, I didn’t treat them any differently, but I felt a little sad inside my soul for them. Why? Because they had harder lives than I did…or so I thought. Truth be told, they were probably happier and more content with themselves than most of us capable of walking. If there’s one thing that chronic illness has taught be is to be more humble. I don’t know half of what I think I do about anyone or anything. I’ve always heard the phrase “Don’t judge a book by it’s cover” but it becomes more true to me every day. One thing I’ll never forget is going to an Easton Corbin concert, and I was in my wheelchair at the time. As I rolled by a group of ladies talking, I overheard one say, “She’s too pretty to be in a wheelchair.”
WHAT?!?! How does that make any sense? If I could have I’d have stood up out of my chair and walked right up to her and asked her to explain exactly what that meant. Bad things happen to good people. Good things happen to bad people. You can be pretty, ugly, white, black, blue, or green- we are all humans and should ultimately all be treated equally. Right?
I’d love to hear your thoughts.
(Sorry in advance for the rant, I will give an update of the past couple months in a day or so. But it is late and that will be one long post.)