Wow. It’s 3:30am and I should be fast asleep, but I stayed up to take my two antibiotics scheduled to be taken at 2 am… and really I am still up because this stupid blog. Just kidding, it’s not stupid- just extraordinarily frustrating. All I wanted to do is get a cute, unique theme different than most peoples’ and the WordPress site has given nothing but trouble.
If anyone knows how to upload a blog (from an outside .zip file) onto WP, please please let me know! I think I might have spent literally like 5 or 6 hours trying to figure it out and have essentially gotten nowhere other than I paid to register my domain name http://melivingwithlupus.com . Woohoo….
While I”m ranting, I might as well tell you about my lovely day. I decided to take up this new hobby of COUPONING. Not just because of that new show, I have always liked coupons for some reason, but the new show made me want to go all out and try it. So I did… while I am still crippled in my right leg, riding one of those awkward electronic shopping carts, following my poor dad around the store as I sorted through all my envelopes of coupons and what was on my list… all while we were in an overcrowded Philly grocery store that I decided to try out to see if it was better than any of the other crappy grocery stores in the city. My dad restrained his frustration very well, but I was stressed out too- due to everything culminating on me, and slowly overwhelming me until I felt like I almost had a nervous breakdown as soon as I got back in the car. Hopefully all the anxiety was from the massive amount of pills the doctors have me on, and hopefully they can put me on another one (lol, yes another) for occasional anxiety. It wasn’t like a panic attack- it was more like a whirlwind of a tornado was spinning around me… and then my lips went numb. Not sure if that’s normal or not, but it was weird.
Early tomorrow afternoon I have a follow-up/update that btw I have lupus appointment with my primary care doctor. Hopefully she can give me something to calm my nerves for situations like that. And/or hopefully I will just get better at dealing with things in a different way. This is definitely a learning process- that it seems like you find out piece by piece how it actually affects you. the over-crowded store I didn’t know my way around, sorting through coupons, and trying not frustrate my poor father who had to tag along the whole time- made me a little anxious! Check it out at the end of the near 3 hour shopping trip… this is how I felt as she was scanning all my coupons at the end. This is the face of hope- hope that all that damn work saved some money!!! (Which it did). But next time I will try a little different of a technique. Hopefully things will be able to move faster, and with any luck I’ll be walking! Even though my first Physical Therapy appointment isn’t until FRIDAY.
Anywhoo…
We will see what the doctor says tomorrow. I suspect she will recommend a therapist, which is an idea I have never been fond of. But for some reason, now it seems like a decent idea. I’m going to need a bariatric surgeon pretty soon too if they don’t get me off this 80mg of predinsone per day. Ah it”s like my stomach just doesn’t have a stop button.
Well, hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I plan on going to the doctor, reading some of my Stephen King book about the Kennedy assassination to relax, and then possibly screwing around attempting to install a prettier theme on here!!
Tomorrow will be a promising day, I’m sure of it 
XoXo Becca
