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So much for the ‘good times’… (Part 1)

Dec11

THE FIRST NIGHT:

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Original incident. Alone this time, no photos until later on in the stay.

Well, according to my last post… LIFE was great. It was. I had my health, my job, and happiness with life in general.

Then, a day or two later it wasn’t. Why? Oh…Same old, same old.  This time I was laying in bed- I felt a sharp and terrible pain in my right hip. I tried to change positions and I could not move my right leg.  Immediately, panic, fear, and terror filled my veins. My parents’ (whom I’m currently living with for support) were on a cruise. Luckily I had my cell phone nearby, because I had to find which cruise ship they were on, call it’s emergency line, and try not to give my mother a heart attack while telling her what was occuring. After that brief conversation I called 911. Luckily we have a ‘code lock’ to our front door along with a key lock so I was able to give the police officers who arrived first the lock code. Then EMS and the firemen arrived.

By this time, it must have been almost 2 in the morning. I had my parents’ 2 dogs on my bed, my 2 cats, and 4-6 emergency responders all in my bedroom. Not to mention I was wailing tears because this had happened again. IT had happened again…

It was pure CHAOS, and strangely with so many people (and animals) around me, I had never felt so alone.

One of the police officers managed to carry the small dogs downstairs for me while I told the paramedics as much as I could manage to convy. Luckily my mom ended up calling back and I believe that I just flat out handed the phone to one of the men…or held it in the air until they got the picture. I was in excruciating pain in a leg that I couldn’t even feel. It seems paradoxical- but it was true. And still is. Once the emergency crew got my vitals, and basic information, they decided to take me to the hospital. My hospital: University of Colorado Hospital- Denver (about a 30 minute drive).  Four men carried me down the curving stairs of my house in what I can best describe as a body-bag  with handles and without a zipper. I felt utterly helpless, and literally had my ‘life’ in these mens’ hands. Then off I went- to the land of doctors and needles.

I get to the hospital, slightly less hysterical than previously mentioned, and am immediately taken to a room. I was helpless, I was alone, and all I wanted to was be ‘normal’ for a change… so I wouldn’t even have the chance to be telling this story! The medicine they gave me wasn’t strong enough, their bedside manner wasn’t calm enough, and worst of all I felt absolutely terrible ruining the second to last day of my parents’ vacation!

Sometime soon after, my mother got back in touch with me through the hospital phone, to the room I was in. Somehow I felt relief she had managed this difficult feat. As quickly as the feelings of happiness came, they were quite literally drained from me. Luckily, as I lost all control of my bladder I was still in the paramedics’ ‘body-bag’ so it was somewhat easy for the nurses to clean up. Although, apparently not easy enough, since one of the nurses asked me to stand up so they could change the bed. If I had the least bit of emotional strength left in me I would have screamed at her “I’m f–king paralyzed b-tch. Do you pay attention at all?!” (My apologies for the ill-mannered thoughts)

But I didn’t have the strength, so I remained silent- perhaps mute- at my utter embarrassment and disdain for my own body.

Shortly after, my dear family friend “Uncle” Bob arrived after hearing the news through my mother’s tears in which she will never admit existed. Bob was my saving grace. I always tell everyone I’m ok alone, I don’t need anyone in the hospital with me, etc. And honestly until that night- I was fine alone. But that night, everything changed. This one time freak accident/illness had recurred…and that made it real.

It was more real than the first hospitalization almost a year ago to the date, where I spend 16 days including Thanksgiving on the Neurology floor. It was more real that all the steroids that caused me to gained almost 50lbs. And it was even more real than all my plasmapheresis and chemotherapy combined.

It was devastating.

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Not to be dramatic by any means, but this is all I can tell (re-live) for tonight.  Thanks for reading, thanks for caring. I will try to finish up this experience tomorrow.

-Becca
XOXO

Oh the places you’ll go!

Jan24

So, after my third dose of Cytoxan Chemotherapy on Thursday (1/19) I was feeling pretty crappy for a few days. Mainly just really run down and had an annoying headache in the shape of a halo around my whole head. I still have a bit of a lingering headache in the back of my head, but I am doing fine on the nausea factor! To be honest, I’m not sure if it’s because I took multiple nausea meds or not, but I haven’t really had that come up as an issue at all. The night of the Cytoxan I felt like a laptop running out of battery.

Yesterday, I was going to paint pottery for some relaxation time with my mom… but we ended up shoe shopping instead… DUE to the winter storm leaving slush all over the city- and me only having ONE pair of shoes (mesh sided sneakers) that fit over my KAFO brace. Shoe shopping sounds fun! …until you’re sweating bent over in a chair at Macy’s trying on your 12th boot that just won’ t fit over the damn ankle hinges and awkward brace. After a few hours in the shoe department, we ended up in a different Macy’s store altogether, which had the apparent sizes I needed of the shoes that might fit. End of story….I ended up with shoes! Shoes I actually love!!! I got essentially a pair for everything I need- but not too many pairs! I got one pair of sweater funny looking but mighty comfy boots, followed by a pair of super cute black and gray wet weather boots (Coach brand!!!<— by chance that brand was the only one that would go on over my brace! Promise.)
I wear a 7 shoe size. These are a 9. The brace boot fit great, but I had to go to an shoe repair guy to make the left shoe fit my 'baby' foot. In addition to those super functional rain/snow boots, I got one pair or black leather flats, and two pair of 'Sperry Top Siders' (one pair pink with plaid, and one patent black with houndstooth). So In addition to those I have my mesh-y black/pink sneakers that I have been wearing with it. Complete Set! That was hard work finding those shoes. Thank goodness my mom was there to help me out- since, in the process, but not because of it, my brace BROKE AGAIN. It started broken in the morning when I put it on I noticed the bolt that slides in the angle hinge was GONE. Therefore, I was luckily enough to have the screws come unattached from the hinge unit, making it near impossible to walk- but oh well, I kept on shoe shopping!

Then I got home to set up my nebulizer after being in the cold air for the day, and whilst on the floor trying to set it up, I sat on and shattered the medication dispenser cap. BUMMER. I got a new one today from the same guy who fixed my shoes though (@ a Medical Supply Store).

It’s an old school picnic basket! Except instead of picnic stuff, it’s make by Grey Goose! I randomly got it at the salvation army one day a while back, and it is so cute and perfect! It has little geese all over the inside lining. Apparently it was something like this but I think my usage is wayy better!!

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Today (Monday 1/23) I had an eye doctor’s appointment. I need bifocals…. I’m getting old!! I told my last eye doctor I needed them, but she didn’t think soo. This one said I definitely do. But I didn’t like the other doctor to start with, so… I guess go with your gut! Haha But I am excited to get my new glasses. They are Vera Bradley brand too!! Funny. I’ll include a pic when I get them, they’re pretty normal looking though just to warn you! No hot-pink believe it or not!!

Tomorrow morning I will take “the leg” the brace BACK to the orthotic device office and have them replace the part. Mike, the employee there said they will ‘blue lock-tite’ the rest of the screws so hopefully I get to actually keep it…..working. Because giving it back is getting really old. I’m not giving it back tomorrow. I’m waiting for them to fix it there. I like walking, so I’ll wait the extra 20 min. You never really know how much we take something as simple as WALKING for granted until you cannot do it. Talk about losing your independence!! My brace [my 'leg' as I call it] is a very important part of me now!!

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I am going to try to start this ’30 days of Truth’ thing I found on another blog soon (today/tomorrow). I think the only way I can do it is if I link it to the pages on the menu at the top, because you can’t really have two blogs– on one blog from what I understand.

THEN tomorrow (Tues 1/24)
My amazing hospital roommate from New Jersey, JUDY, whom I met back in November, is coming with her mom to stay for two nights while she has doctors’ appointments in Philly. I thought it’d be a great idea to have them over here. It will save them hotel money and we get to spend time together as actual FRIENDS outside the hospital setting!! I’m so excited. She is a great person, dealing with so much. I’m ready for some good conversation :) If anyone thinks I am inspiring or ‘strong’ for going through a lot, you should meet this young lady. Wow. She is an inspiration to me! I can’t wait to actually spend more time together and chat!!!

Ok, bedtime now, Talk to ya later

xoxo becca

Long Time No See! [Family Visit--Holidays!]

Jan2


So, I’m pretty sure I ended the  my last blog saying how soon I’d be  back with information on my Cytoxin Chemotherapy treatment.

Ok, So lets start from the beginning I guess. But, fair-warning,- I am slightly medicated.

No, I didn’t die; Yes, it’s been over a week since I blogged! :( And I’ve been thinking about the poor blog every single day. Whether it was time one day or energy another, I just haven’t gotten around to doing it. BUT NOW, I’m back in the hospital and I have all the time in the world.

Wednesday (Dec 21)
I had my outpatient Cytoxin infusion Wednesday the 21st, four days before Christmas. All went well. Better than expected to be honest. I took one Phenergan (Rx nausea pill I had on hand).   I got there early in the morning around 8am, registered, and it was through the same room in the hospital as the plasmapherisis treatments- where I already knew most of  the nurses.  Then I got a comfy reclining chair, IV  fluids, and Zofran (nausea medication) all before the chemo was administered. The chemo took about 2 or 2.5 hours I’d say… and then they monitored me for maybe another 30 min. A very  nice nurse, Ashley, was in there the entire time, monitoring me and we chatted a bit. And it was over.

Then I went home, took another Phenergan (in case I got nauseous) and slept a few hours until around dinner time.  When I woke up I felt fine, I was bored, and wanted to go somewhere! So I called my mom up, and we convinced my dad we needed to go hang out at the casino because she had ‘free money’ vouchers.  I didn’t think it would be so bad since I had a wheelchair to be pushed around in all night. It really wasn’t that bad either. I got tired out pretty early into the night and went and hung out at the sandwich shop, but my problem was  loosing $100 my mom gave me in 20′s that I had in my lap as I went through the gift shop when I walked in. I even had security look for it with all their  ’ahhmazing’ camera systems- but nope-poof it was gone. There went  my first hour and fun of the night!! My parents ended up winning money, so it all worked out. But I was a bit bummed, ya know?

Pre-Holidays (Dec 22 -Dec 24?)

My mom and I pretty much spent way too much time and way too much money shopping for last minute Christmas gifts that we DEFINITELY needed… :)

We stayed out until pretty much all of the stores closed, which was actually too early. My dad started calling us the people “who used to live there”  …haha.   It was funny until the 3rd or 4th or 8th time.

Then my dad was soo kind to wheel me down to LOVE Park so I could get some warm “mulled wine” from the Christmas Village where vendors set up a little zone to buy fun things in.  I  absolutley love the city and history of Philadelphia.

Sunday (Dec 24th)

I believe I spent the first half of Christmas Eve in bed writing cards and relaxing in bed, the second half wrapping presents, and then that night my mom, dad, and I unwrapped our presents!!! :)

YEP! We unwrapped them on Christmas Eve! Luckily, Santa even got his presents there  in time. We didn’t get our GIANT stockings full of more goodies and gift cards and stuff until Christmas day, but that’s kind of how our (new-ish) tradition goes.  It started several years back with one present allowed to be opened before Christmas. Then as we got older (into our 20′s?) it kind of evolved into all the presents!!!! That way we get to sleep in really late on Christmas day, and enjoy more presents (stockings) when we do get up, we have a huge brunch, and just relax and enjoy the day :)   (with all our new stuff!!!)


Monday (Dec 26th)
This year, my older sister (Michelle) was finally able to get time off from work, and was able to drive up from Florida to visit for the holidays and introduced us to her long-time boyfriend Rob, and his son, Kolby, who were both amazing young men. Unfortunately they were only able to stay until Friday… but we had a great time while they were here!  We had our traditional “Christmas Dinner” on the night they arrived, followed by more present opening! Then we showed  them around the city- including visit the Liberty Bell and Independence Hall, plus lots of other exciting tourist stuff while they were here!!


Tuesday  (Dec 27th)

I had Physical Therapy and found out that my orthotic leg brace was arriving on Friday (Dec 30!!!!)  OMG SoOoOooo excited!! I am so very ready to walk again even if I will look like a pink shade of Forrest Gump!!!

←  This is it!!!! I think I’m in LOVE!  ❤
From what I understand, it will let me bend my knee around 30 degrees forward and then when my foot/heel touch the ground, hydraulics lock my knee back into place, allowing my leg to push forward – aka – walk!!!! Hooray!In addition to my leg brace and P.T, my grandmother (Gran) was scheduled to arrive from Mississippi around dinnertime on Tuesday the 27th, but due to a series of ridiculous flight delays, she didn’t get in Philadlelphia until around 11pm, so she didn’t even get to seee Ron and Kolby until the next morning.
[Side note: I think I started developing a slight  this day...?]

 

Wednedsday (Dec 28th)

We took the entire family to Hershey Park, PA. We did tons of fun fun candy stuff! I was in the wheelchair of course, but it actually helped us cut in line once or twice at the attractions! (OOPS— I was happy/sad about at that at the same time). We designed our owned candy bars, fillings, wrappers and all- and watched the process of them being made from start to finish- which was pretty neat! We did lots of other stuff, a 3D movie, a ride simulating a virtual tour showing how everything was done and made, shopping, got employee badges, rode the trolley to see Hershey’s original house he built, which was turned into an orphanage for boys. By the end of the day I was definitely pretty beat up feeling.   But then we went out to eat at Houlihan’s Restaurant, which was delicious….


Thursday (Dec 29th)But that was pretty much the end of my excitement :o (   Towards the end of the night I felt general malaise- sick, and was coughing a bit more, and heavier. The extreme drop in temperature and sharp increase in wind speeds probably didn”t help my lungs feel any better though.

Back to the real world. I went to Physical Therapy early (at 9am instead of 11am) so I could hang out with my family for a bit longer, but my dad took my Michelle, Rob, and Kolby out to South Philadelphia to get their famous ‘CHEESESTEAKS’ which were  apparently delicious. And then they decided to take their own historic walk back to Center City (about 5 miles).

I was really starting to feel worse after P.T. sick wise, so my mom and I went to the  ’Drexel Convienient Care Clinic.’ It’s pretty much like a tiny urgent care in the city. They fixed my mom up with some medication (Oh, BY THE WAY, she has shingles). But they told me they thought I had bronchitis and I needed to go to the ER for an XRay, etc.  By the time that was all over, it was determined the doctor’s thought I had a strange abscess on my stomach, and bronchitis. They sent me home with a prescription for Bactrum (antibiotic), an albuterol inhaler, and liquid phenergan with codine (for cough).

Luckily, my dad took my sister and I out to walk out walking the city- so I didn’t ruin their day by being a BAHumBUG. We ended up getting home around the same time actually within a few minutes of each other- at that off time between dinner and lunch and we all went at ate at the local pub (best food ever-only half a block across the street from our front door). Then Gran and I went upstairs to go to sleep early/ I let Kolby hang out in my bed and watch movies with me have tickle fights etc until the adults got home from spending their last night hanging out at the local casino! Fun stuff.

Friday (Dec 30) — Sister leaves town//Hospitalization
The next day, feeling much worse,  I made an appointment with my primary care doctor’s office, but unfortunately on such short notice it was a doctor I had not met. Sho direct admitted me to the hospital [of which you ^above^ can see my truly great view of historic city hall, right outside my hospital bedroom window!]  .  The doctor said my cough was awful, didn’t want the bronchitis to progress into pneumonia (with me being so susceptible via the lupus), and the spot on my stomach looked awful.  Luckily, I had suspected this, and gave  my sister and her family big hugs, kisses, and I love you’s before I headed off to the doctor’s office just in case. But they (my family) were able to do some shopping and more sightseeing before they left- so it wasn’t a bother that I was gone :)

Monday (1/2/2012) –TODAY
I am still in the hospital, day 4, going on 5. Hopefully I will be released tomorrow. My rheuumotologist and I think I am well enough to go home, but he also wants neurology and cardiology to
see me before I go. So it may end up being Wednesday…?

I will write another blog on my actual hospital stay (Dec 30 to Jan 0?)  probably tomorrow. It’s not too exciting and eventful, but I took notes. In summary: I am currently still receiving 3 IV antibiotics to treat infection fromboth severe bronchitis (they said I sounded like a seal-boo) and also for the ‘phelgram’ (in the family of abscesses/folliculitis) on my stomach. They cut open my stomach and took out the infection, so that should be healing.  In addition to pain meds and all my lupus meds, I’m getting nebulizer breathing treatments ever 8 hours and a 24 hour cool mist 50% Oxygen mask to moisten my lungs. Bottom line, I look pretty awesome. NOT.

I will definitely be writing the long(er) story of my hospital stay very soon. Be excited!!!
Otherwise, facebook me, whydontchtcha??      [  facebook.com/livelaughlovelupus  ]

XoXo BeccaBoo

Merry Christmahanakwazaka!!

Dec26

HEY GUYS–

Sorry, I haven’t given any updates since my chemotherapy treatment. It didn’t even make me feel bad other than being super tired afterwards (most likely because all the anti-nausea medication, Phenergan, that I took. Anyways, I didn’t notice much of an affect of it at all, energy wise I felt fine. But I did notice it was harder to (well, more tiring)  to get around. Especially on the wheelchair. It felt like not only was I rolling myself around, but had some really heavy sweaty man sitting on top of me, daring my arms to push the wheels. Ok- that was a little excessive- barely. Then I go back for my next round on Jan 16 I believe.

Anyways, although I am having trouble falling asleep due to pain, it is way to late for me to try to write anything o f worth on here tonight. I will be back on the blogging scence tomorrow morning with lots of juicy details of my past week. Haha, maybe some of them coul’ve been exciting…. SO I will try to do better at writing on here more often, because I enjoy i t. Apparently I can video blog too. So maybe I’ll post one of those every once in a while.

Well, for now, I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and/or a Happy Healthy holidays!!!! I’m thinking about all of you out there! Happy Holidays :)

xoxo-BeccaBoo

—Oh, random quote of the day:  ”If you’re going through hell, keep on going. Don’t slow down, if you’re scared don’t show it! Because you might get OUT, before the devil even knows you’re you’re there!!!”  -Rodney Atkins

Keep Breathing

Dec17

Productivity and Progress!!!

Dec17

Today I went to the Physical Therapist (as usual- Mon, Wed, Friday until March 2012i) and the ‘Orthotist‘  came by I got fit/casted for a leg brace that should enable me to WALK!!!

Check it out, he actually made a cast of my leg –>

Since I have fair control over my hip joint, the ‘brace’ (which will be molded to my thigh and calf areas)  will have hydraulics at the knee joint allowing me to bend my knee up to 30 degrees and then lock, simulating or initiating walking.  I think it will also have metal bars that run down both sides of my legs in addition the the hydraulic knee.

It will take a week to make- AFTER insurance processes it that is, so I don’t know when I will actually be getting it. However, I did get to pick out the color!!! And it will be a very pretty soft pink colored plastic. Its called a KAFO brace.

 I believe it will look something like this->
(but instead of all the grayish stuff it will be pink- maybe?)

So, that was an unexpected but super-exciting visit, because I wasn’t expecting to get fitted for that until next week!!

THEN, I had an appointment with my rheumatologist.  He is an AMAZAING doctor, and a very very busy man, and if he weren’t who he were I don’t know how I would have dealt with today. Haha- let me explain. My appointment was at 2:15pm. I left his office at 6:15pm. Now don’t let the wait give you the wrong impression- he gives meaning to the phrase “Worth the wait”… but today was a little excessive. Anywhoo, I’m certainly not complaining. I learned a lot. I got a cortisone shot in my hip! to hopefully remove some of the chronic pain. We are hoping the pain is ‘bursitis‘ secondary to the inflammation of my joints, etc. My hip still hurts, but I’m definitely going to give it some time and see how it works.

So, here is what I found out today:   (I apologize in advance if it gets confusing or repetitive and for the big medical words)

I learned (from the rheumatologist telling his intern of the day) that I have a very rare symptom of SLE lupus- in which you may see 1-3 cases per 1000 patients. Apparently lupus can most severely affect two main organs: the kidneys or the brain/spinal cord. Mine chose the CNS (brain/spinal cord). Apparently I have an immense amount of inflammation [Transverse Myelitis] in my spinal cord, specifically at the L1 level- where the lesion is located. According to the doctor, “only a handful of patients have Vasculitis with Systemic Lupus Erythematosus” (SLE). ….and I do.   

SO the rare  part of it, is associated with my hyperreflexia (basically overactive reflexes-aka if you do the hammer test on my knee I will probably kick you…hard).  I have this hyperreflexia due to the tranverse myeltis (inflamation of my spinal cord).  And according to the doctor, in general, the people with myelopothy who “survive“  (which I am hoping means recover) are the people who receive CYTOXIN. Which is the chemotherapy drug I got in the hospital! (Good news for me).

I will be scheduled to have the Cytoxin Chemotherapy Infusion for 6 more cycles, starting next week.  :) !!! Now, don’t get me wrong… I’m NOT excited to have to go through 7 cycles of chemotherapy- it’s a very aggressive treatment for lupus- but I am excited that it should lead me to recovery. Meaning, I can walk. I can drive. I can do normal things I want to. (if all goes well).

OOOHH  and I can’t forget to mention I am officially no longer on 80mg of prednisone a day!!!  I am down to a whopping 60mg per day.  Still a huge overwhelming amount, but I’ll take whatever decrease-age I can get from that evil drug (which happens to be saving my spinal cord function).

AND if all does go well, once I am “stabilized”  (ETA: 6 months) the plan will be to switch me over to CellCept a more “user-friendly” immunosuppresant drug. …Which from what I read, may eliminate the need for steroids.

We will just have to wait and see.

So, in a nutshell, today was a wonderful day. (I think!!!)

Coping. Doctors. Holidays. Book.

Dec12


COPING

I think I am just now starting to cope with the fact that I actually have Lupus, a lifetime Chronic Autoimmune Disease. And a serious case of it. From what I can tell, when they are planning from the initial diagnosis to start/continue Chemotherapy and 80mg of Presnisone (immunosuppresant steroids) for 6 months… that classifies your disease as serious :(

Now, when I say I’m coping, I’m not crying about it or getting depressed or anything like that. I believe I am just getting over the initial semi-ignorant shock phase. The past week has been pretty busy for me… and it really showed me how different my life is now, than it was just one month ago. Everything is different.  Hopefully I make a strong recovery, but I am no longer independent. I am not dependent, but I am not at the level of complete independence I had and loved.  I feel a little guilty for the inconvenience I’m putting on my family, but I don’t know what I’d ever do without them in this situation.  And my dad, whom luckily is retired, has essentially set his life on hold for me. I just hate feeling like a burden. I’m 23, I was just about to start nursing school, and POOF. Everything changed in a literal blink of an eye. Anyone relate?  But ANYWAYS, onto some other stuff.

DOCTORS

I had an appointment with my primary care doctor earlier this week. Poor lady, I’m fairly new to Philadelphia, so I’ve only seen/met her once before. Then I made this hospital follow-up appointment with her, show up with my dad  (because out of nescesity he goes everywhere with me now) and when she asks what the visit is for… I say “WELL, I know last month I was relatively healthy when I saw you, but…. I just got out of a 16 day stay on the Neurology floor in the hospital, I have LUPUS, Transverse Myelitis, a lesion on my spinal cord and I cannot currently use my right leg.  Here’s my medication list- it’s about 30 pills a day, and the hospital told me I need some additional meds but that I need to see you- my primary care doctor- to get the prescriptions.”   I think her jaw dropped open. She told me she was sorry…. which is comforting and all, but I felt more sorry for most likely completely surprising and overwhelming her. At the end of the appointment I think she was holding back from giving me a hug…

While I was there, I think I got a picture of my hands with a mild case of  ”Raynaud’s phenomenon”

But the appointment was very helpful. She recommended I see some sort of a therapist, dealing with people coping with illnesses- and even possibly family counseling- because it is definitely taking a toll on more than just me.  I’m not big on therapy- but this time I think I might have a thing or two to learn from it. Has anyone of you tried this?

She also prescribed be a benzodiazapine (Klonopin) to take up to 3x day. It’s similar to xanax/valium I believe.

They don’t make me feel loopy, but they certainly do take away some of the absolutely overwhelming body crushing anxiousness I have been experiencing at somewhat random times, and of course stressful times. That was a neccessity- I think it’s from the massive steroid dosage I am on- perhaps combined with everything else going on in general- but I have been soo anxious, in a nit-picky way. It’s  like I lost control of my leg, and therefore I feel the need to overcompensate by controlling everything else- which is difficult in itself. It’s like a crazy hectic circle I’m running in. But- point being, the little green pills help.  AND she gave me ambien, which helps me get to sleep. I never really had a problem falling asleep, but I guess again because of the meds, I don’t really fall asleep at night.  She also told me I need to begin monitoring my “fasting” blood sugar in the mornings to make sure my kidneys are handling all these drugs alright, and I don’t get diabetes. Pro: I’m a gadget nerd and I got an awesome blood-glucose monitor that plugs into the computer via USB and logs my info :)   Con: No more  juices-orange juice, cranberry juice, apple juice, none of it anymore :(   I basically used to live off of orange juice. So I’m adapting to that.

Oh, and I had my first physical therapy appointment (Evaluation) on Friday. One good thing about living in the city- the rehab center is so close my dad just pushes me down there in my wheelchair in about a 5-10 minute walk.  The P.T. said I have ‘clonus’ in my foot, ankle, and knee, but my hip is already strong and on the road to recovery. Iwill need to be fitted into a brace  that supports my ankle and all the way up to my knee. It will be molded to my leg and sent off to be made I guess. She said it will have metal around the joints- and it will enable me to WALK!!! I can’t wait to see it. She also said I have a strong chance of recovery because I have strong muscle tone and willpower :) :)   So I will be going to P.T. 3x week (Mon, Wed, Fri) at 11am until March. I start the actual ‘therapy’ tomorrow and I am SO excited. I’m about to officially be on the road to RECOVERY! (for this current issue at least…)I have another appointment with her in early January a few hours after I see my neurologist for my first post-hospital check up. So that should be an interesting day of doctor visits.

Also, I have  a very important appointment coming up with my rheumatologist (whom I got so incredibly lucky to receive as my doctor in this city) on the 16th of December. After that appointment I should be able to get a handicapped parking permit, my disability coverage, and some sort  of a long-term treatment plan…I think??.  His name is Dr. Huppert. He  is so well educated in many illnesses, but especially Lupus- and he says my case is ‘special.’ I believe he means unique, in the way my symptoms presented? But he wants me as a patient, to understand my case of lupus, and hopefully help me as much as possible. He told me my treatment plan he’s giving me is unconventional, very harsh, but necessary-if I want to walk again. I am counting down the days to that appointment. (Only 4 more!) So, a big blog update will come after that I suppose. Weird, I never thought I would be so excited and full of anticipation to go to a doctor’s appointment.

I’ll give an exciting therapy update on here tomorrow.

HOLIDAYS

So yesterday my mom and I went Christmas shopping. Holey gosh  darn gamoley. It was crazy. First off, in a wheelchair it is a little difficult to get around stores, people, etc…. but there were so so many people. That was my first experience trying to get around in a crowd in my chair. It ended up going well, we got lots and lots of stuff at this amazing outlet mall an hour north of Philly.  We spent way too much money but got oh so much wonderful stuff. :) Retail therapy at it’s best. The wheelchair comes in very handy as a human shopping cart :)

Today I hung out with my mom and one of her coworkers, who is just a bit older than me…and we explored Philly. (Sounds like it would be weird but it wasn’t at all- she’s super nice and we got along GREAT). Anyways, she’s from Boston so we showed her around Philly a bit…We started in the historic Macy’s in Center City- where I got the most adorably amazing pink Coach watch!!!  Then we walked around (I rode in the chair of course) and we had a lovely day strolling through the city- went to ‘Christmas Town’? which is set up in LOVE Park- and had some WARM mulled wine. YUMM YUMMM YUMM. We just did lots of little local vendor shopping- jewelry and such. And we ended the night at my favorite sushi restaurant in the entire city! It was a very good day :) And I made a new friend…. my  mom’s coworker– Erin. :D

Well…. it is 3:30 am again. I guess I should take my ambien and go to sleep so I make it to therapy in the morning!!!! Does anyone else get excited to go to PT? I’m just soo ready for my leg to WORK!!!

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Oh- and I just started reading a book about Lupus- called  ”How can you NOT Laugh at a Time like This? – Reclaim your health with humor, creativity, and grit”. By Carla Ulbrich. So far so good. The title alone reminds me of ME, so it’s gotta be good right? Has anyone read it??

I’d love to hear everyone’s thoughts on some good books, routines, coping, ANYTHING!

Goodnight everyone! Thanks for reading :)

XoXo – Becca